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By A Sol<!










H. M. G. and M. M. H.

With a Preface by


New York




To the heroic women of the world,
the mothers, wives, sisters and sweet-
hearts who bravely sent us forth to battle
for a great cause: we who have crossed
the Great Divide salute you.


It is quite as foolish as it is unneces-
sary to argue the question of communi-
cation between the living and the so-
called dead. So many eminent men, sci-
entific and otherwise, like Sir Oliver
Lodge and Sir Arthur Conan Doyle, for
instance to name two who are prom-
inent in the public mind have, after
years of investigation, expressed their be-
lief in the truth of this communication
that we do not go far astray if we assert
the establishment of this fact as a fact
However, it is not my purpose to make
any argument on this point; either one
believes or he does not, and that is all



there is to it so far as the individual is
concerned. And yet I would like to give
to those who may read this little book,
personal assurances from one who has
no material interest in its publication
that these messages were obtained abso-
lutely in the circumstances set forth by
the writers. And whether one believes
or does not, I am sure that there is re-
vealed in them a suggestion of a philos-
ophy which can not but help those many
thousands who are so heavy of heart be-
cause of what they deem the losses which
the Great War has brought to them.

These letters, or messages, from a doc-
tor-soldier who has been serving through-
out the war on the spirit side, make the
plea in behalf of and at the suggestion
of those brave lads who have Gone West
for a more rational acceptance of the
thing we call death. This he urges, not


only for the sake of those who are left
behind, but more for the sake of those
who have gone beyond and who, when
they come back to the old scenes, are
shocked and saddened by the despair and
the grief they find, by the refusal of their
dear ones to realize that life is continu-
ing and continuous and that death is only
a change and not the end.

My own observation and my experi-
ence with others have convinced me that
there is not only a great need for these
messages but a great demand for them.
I find so many parents whose soldier boys
will not come back to them in the flesh
who are seeking in all directions for
some word that will help them, so many
who are striving, more or less blindly,
for the right attitude, an attitude that
will bring them some surcease of sorrow
and that will at the same time enable



them to be of help to those wno have
gone on.

It has been my privilege and my pleas-
ure to have enjoyed a long personal and
intimate acquaintance with both the mes-
sage-giver and the message-bearers. The
doctor-soldier was a man if I speak of
him here in the past tense it is only be-
cause I yield to convention of unusual
solidity of character, scientific in his hab-
its of thought, of fine perceptions and
eminently successful both in his profes-
sion and in business. His strong person-
ality stands out in these recorded ob-
servations as distinctly as it was ever
manifested while he was a part of this
earth life. The associated earthly au-
thors of this book are women of culture
and the highest principles, they have long
been students of psychical matters and
there can be no question concerning their


honesty of purpose or of the circum-
stances surrounding the production of
their MS.


Literary Editor,
Buffalo Sun a' ay Express.
Buffalo, N. Y., March 10, 1919.



On Lincoln's Birthday 1915, a noble
gentleman passed into the unseen life.
A soldier of the Civil War later a
physician now again a Soldier Doctor
in the Great World War.

A month after his crossing the "Great
Divide," messages began coming back to
the two women whose friendly guide he
had been since childhood.

The "wireless" machine was only a
pencil. The methods of sending, tele-
pathic. The proof of his identity, con-
vincing to those who had known and
loved him.

At intervals during the three years fol-
lowing, the pages of this little volume
were given, together with many more


communications of a wholly personal

When the war was nearing its end the
Doctor urged his friends to give certain
parts of his story to the world, hoping
to assuage the grief of sorrowing mothers
and to add a bit of cheer to the
first months of his homesick boys "Over

For those who must be assured of iden-
tity the little episode of the ring (P. 42)
may prove convincing. None of the
Doctor's intimate friends however has a
doubt about his return, so many and so
individual have been the proofs of his

A great soul who faced the unknown
bravely with an open mind, he has the
courage to tell the truth as simply and
fearlessly as he spoke and lived when
on earth. With undimmed eyes and



straightforward words he gives his con-
tribution to a sorrowing world, hoping
his experience in The Great Adventure
may give solace to some, a bit of cheer to
others, and teach all to keep hearts and
homes happy with a cheerful welcome
for the unseen guests our soldier boys
who have "Gone West."

Part First: Pre-war Letters

MARCH 7, 1915

When you are ready to write I shall
be here to give you all the glad hand,
and glad it is. I never believed you
really did this writing. It takes two
worlds to convince a hard-headed old
doubter like me.

One day in March, 1915, the amanuen-
sis of these communications was sitting
at her desk writing letters. Suddenly
her pen was seized by an unseen force
and the preceding words were written.

The Doctor had been dead nearly a
month. Though believing intercom-
munication between two worlds possible,
his friends hesitated to make any efforts
to hear from him, knowing his attitude
of mind while here was skeptical and


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feeling sure his desires and scientific turn
of mind would make him investigate as
soon as he was able.

He experimented with automatic
writing. At first he tried to use the
hand. The chirography was not unlike
his own which he describes as "shaky "
owing to a nervous infirmity.

Impatient to communicate faster he
asked the help of a spirit friend, Gerome,
who was experienced in the telepathic
method, and later the Doctor mastered
"the wireless" as he calls this means of
sending his messages.

From a mass of material, conversa-
tional in character, his friends have culled
out the following at his request, and give
it in the form it was presented to them.
The italics show their questions and in-

Repetition, change and growth of


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opinion are obvious, but it seems wiser to
let him present the story of his adven-
tures as he gave it.

MARCH 8, 1915

My hand is still pretty shaky. Re-
ferring to the appearance of the writing
when he tried to use the hand. Never
mind, I can talk, and it's mighty good to
know you know I am here. I have been
with you so much I wonder if you have
sensed it. Thank Heaven there isn't
that awful feeling of separation I feared.
It was my only reason for not wanting to
leave my tired old body; and, my dear
girls, when you come, see that the old
garment is cremated, it's the only way.
I have met people who have been here
for years and they have the most peculiar
clinging to their earthly bodies. It's a
terrible drawback.


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Can you see us? Surely I can, as
plain as day.

Did you know the day you died that
you were going to die? Yes, I knew it,
but my first consciousness of the transi-
tion was when I saw you standing by me
holding my hand and crying. Then I
said to myself "I am dead, I surely am,
and I feel more alive than I have felt in
years." It was mighty good not to have
that awful breathing and feel those mis-
erable legs refuse to carry me. I next
saw M. and H. and J. and C. all looking
at me crying and laughing. It was a re-
union I can tell you. I was not very
strong for a few days but I was so deter-
mined to be well that I am well now. I
feel humble about offering opinions but
when I could see myself grow vigorous
by thinking of health I wondered if I
could not have done it before. The sci-


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entific use of thought is necessary here to
conduct one's life. I don't know much
yet but wait a bit. I'll have worlds to
tell you. Isn't it going to be fine? lean
pass on all I learn. I think in my sleep
I have been peeping into this life for
some time, so many things seem familiar,
and they tell me my transition was mar-
velously easy.


It has never seemed feasible to me to
put into words our life over here. I
couldn't see how it was going to help
those on your plane, but of course it will
help. I want to add a few thoughts of
my own. One of them is this when you
come over don't try to get in touch with
every living soul you ever knew. You
meet them fast enough, those waiting for
you are sufficient at first. Doctor is


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crazy to look up all his relatives, friends,
acquaintances, God knows who all, and
I tell him to hold on a bit. He is living
in eternity and there is plenty of time
coming. Now I want to help him to
communicate before he is too far re-
moved from earth thoughts, then his fu-
ture experiences can be given back to
you. If he doesn't learn this lesson now
he may never be able to make his knowl-
edge of any value to you.


I have had a wonderful adventure. I
went with M. to a temple. I supposed
it to be a church but it was more on the
order of a college. There was the great-
est motley array of people and costumes
I ever beheld. They were apparently
of all nations and all ages.

I was given a seat and told to make


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no sound. They were thinking in uni-
son and what do you think it was about?
That the war should cease on earth.
They believe they can stop the European
war that way. I have never supposed
one could hear and see thought but above
the heads of the congregation there arose
a cloud of something like a vapor. It
was gold in color and floated away in the
direction of the war zone. They told
me it would interpenetrate the layers of
war thoughts and eventually dissolve
them. It looked mighty fishy to me, but
I left the Temple and tried to follow

I could see it settle in camps in the
midst of France and a still queerer thing
happened. It was as if two opposing
armies of people met, only it was merely
a mist. The gold mist began to dissolve
the dull red and purple mists and when


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I left I could see spots where only the
gold remained.

Now I cannot tell you I believe this
was the thought force of that throng, but
they tell me it was, and that these people
meet every midnight for this prayer serv-


You see the Doctor is still skeptical
about the invisible realities but when
enough of them become visible to him
he will decide there is something to

That Temple is called "The Temple
of Light" because it is there great uplift-
ing forces are started for reforms on
earth. If they meet sufficient response
a great movement is born in the world.
The Reformation is a sample and right
now we are seeing the most wonderful


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spiritual awakening the world has ever

Even the beginning of the Christian
era could show nothing greater, for now
a large proportion of the people on earth
will comprehend it. We call it the age
of spiritual consciousness. Materialism
is to grow less and less and the spiritual
verities will become more evident.


You will have real fun when you get
here. Things won't surprise you as
much as they do me. Our life is very
normal. I heard you talking about our
apparent freedom to do as we please.
We do and we don't. To be sure, we
have not the same family responsibilities
but the more developed a soul is, the
m&re he realizes his part in the great
scheme of the universe and the more

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sacred his sense of duty to perform it.

The thing that interests me most now
is the law of vibration. It is necessary
to understand it to see how our worlds
intermingle and still do not collide.
The Astral Plane this is called.

I am beginning to sense more and more
its possibilities and beauties. I shall
soon have duties enough. I begin to see
where my work is needed.

You girls must study thought and
thought action constantly. If you could
see the thought vibrations they would
astound you. It is appalling to find that
every single thought does something just
as definitely as when you sew stitches in
a garment.

I took a lesson the other day in con-
structive thinking. We were told to vis-
ualize a plan for a garden, see the paths,
trees, flowers, etc. We closed our eyes


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and concentrated upou the plan, opened
them and there it was before us, not the
gardens but complete plans for them as
if we had drawn them upon paper. I
could take mine in my hands and file it
away for reference it became so stable.
It is no more surprising than that an
architect should make such a plan and
put it on paper with his hands, only we
need not use our hands if we know how
to utilize the sensitive plates for register-
ing thoughts which we project.

Because of my interest in scientific
things I have found the laboratories my
first interest. Others would not be look-
ing for just such things and would tell
you different stories of their experi-

One discovery I have made is this.
On your plane you make too hard work
of doing things. You think you must


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carve out everything "by the sweat of
your brow." Well, you need not "sweat"
so much if you would think more and
rush around less. The only trouble is
that you do twice as much destructive
thinking as constructive. A mason who
lays five hundred 'bricks, then pulls down
four hundred wouldn't get his building
very fast.

If you want a thing, picture it, hang
to the invisible pattern no matter what
your eyes see, and the pattern must be-
come materialized in your vibration.

DECEMBER b, 1915

My birthday seems to have come
around again. I had almost forgotten
it for I have another birthday in Febru-
ary which is more important now. It
has been an exciting year as I look back
upon it, unbelievably full of events.


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When I wrote last, you will remember
I had been idly traveling, but one day
last Spring I ran up against some real
experiences that set me back on my old
trail of doctoring. I never thought I
should be at my profession again, did not
suppose it would be needed here. That
was one of the lessons I had to learn,
everything counts.

One day I was called upon to go to
France and help on the battle-fields. I
had selfishly avoided them, thinking I
could do no good and they would only
depress me.

That night I had my awakening. It
was after an awful battle. The boys
were lying out on the fields waiting for
help from God, Man or Devil. When I
heard that despairing call I buckled on
my mental armor and said to myself,
"Back on the job, old man, you have no


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excuse in frailness now." I was never
stronger nor more equal to the task.

I am not going into details about these
last months, you couldn't stand the hear-
ing nor I the telling. Hell! Hell!
Hell! only there has been a certain joy
in it all. Being of use is the secret of
happiness and my small part may have
helped some poor lad to leave your world
with less anguish. It's the leaving that
is the hardest part of it all, leaving what
they think is life and what they suppose
to be their only bodies. And do you
know my experience as a physician has
taught me much about this second birth,
for birth it surely is.

All great Doctors are conscious or
unconscious psychologists. The actual
physical help is trivial compared to the
mental therapeutics. After my first les-
sons in thought force I could see the an-


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alogy. My lessons have been very prac-
tical ones. Any one would learn them
in this school.

After I had my bearings it wasn't so
hard and would be intensely interesting
if I didn't feel all the time what folly
there is in the world to have caused this
war. Good must come out of it, but
don't delude yourselves that war is nec-
essary; there is the better way, and the
world must learn this or cease its progres-

I had too many years of enforced rest,
now it is time for me to give out again
and a big Duty is calling. If you want
to talk to me, make appointments; a Sol-
dier Doctor, you know, must be on duty
most of the time. I can come about once
a week.

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The psychic senses can be cultivated,
give them a chance. They say the new
race is to have them developed to a mar-
velous degree. Perhaps we shall all
want to go back. I'll wait for you and
we will talk it over later.

I'm off duty to-night and feel like a
boy out of school. We don't call you,
fearing to interrupt vital matters.
That's right, don't do it, time enough
later. You know time becomes elon-
gated here. We do not fuss about to-day
and to-morrow and it saves a lot of worry.
Half of the trouble in the world, as I
think it over now, was caused by fussing
over the things we didn't get done that
day. That is one of the silliest notions
of your old world.

Do you want to talk about the war?


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It's hard to talk about it; we are too near
its carnage. At last I am beginning to
get some other points of view At first
all I could see was the useless butchery.
Now I understand more of the causes
and though I do not believe such things
should be, I know what has brought them
about and where the world is trend-
ing. It is the birth of many things
and the death of many curses to man-

// is suggested that Lincoln is watch-
ing over our country. Yes, that I too
have heard. I have seen him once, but
I felt so great an awe of him I could not
greet him. He appears a much more ex-
alted soul here than while living on

Are you 'working in France? Mostly,
but not entirely. I have offered my
services as a physician should, where


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they are most needed. Last month I was
in Serbia.

I am Ipoking forward to the day when
these trying events will be over and we
can go on with our communications.
They will become easier as time goes on,
because of conditions with which we
have nothing to do. Instead of getting
farther apart we shall draw nearer. It
may not be this year nor next but it is

FEBRUARY 26, 1916

This wireless communication is not as
strange as it seems and is a great comfort
for the few of us who can use it. I was
telling some people here about it the
other day and you should have seen their
amazement. Just as incredulous as they
are with you. It doesn't make much dif-
ference where you live. Knowledge


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does not come because one has lost his
earthly body. Were it not for H. I do
not suppose I could have had this pleas-
ure and it is the greatest comfort. We
get as homesick as you. I have even
been guilty of wanting to go back into
my old cumbersome body which would
never obey my wishes. Not now how-
ever ; when one finds out how to use this
more ethereal body it grows in wonder
and delight. I ran about at first for the
mere pleasure of running, more cor-
rectly, thought myself places. It took a
time to find out how it was done, but
when I grasped it there was nothing gave
me so much pleasure as the annihilation
of distance.

In answer to a question regarding a
battle. It looks as though the Germans
were winning, but all the time we are
told the Allies will come out ahead.


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Those on my plane of vision get very lit-
tle more light than you, though there are
seers who prophesy. I suppose they see
more or else they guess better.

We are not only kept busy helping
people to be born here but in enlighten-
ing their minds as to the causes and re-
sults of their righting. Our chief ef-
forts are to change their hatred into tol-
erance and understanding. They are in-
structed, thousands at a time.

I told you I was going to take Peggy
to the battle-fields. Well, I have done it
and she was a little hero. I really
dreaded the first sight of war for her, but
we began with the hospitals. I then
handed over a patient or two to give her
mind definite work that the horrors
would not be so overwhelming. She is
a wonderful girl and will be a real god-


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send. I need not have worried. She
will spend only a part of her time with
us but will do her share from now on.

Peggy <was a young college girl of
'whom the Doctor 'was very fond. She
died about six months after his death.

Since my enlistment I have gone only
where I have been most needed. We
are organized for work and I have given
my aid to severely wounded soldiers who
were having difficulty in being released
from their bodies. Some are killed in-
stantly and others aid them. Then there
are many kinds of prolonged dying. I
have had some very trying cases where
it was nip and tuck which way they went.
When their bodies are too shattered I
help to release them. Yes, it is queer
but not more so than birth into your
world. The whole amazing process is


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queerer than queer. One might as well
decide everything is natural; the more
astounding the more natural. When the
war is over I shall have time to go on
with my investigations. I had enough
shown me to find out I knew nothing at
all. Apparently we start school in the
kindergarten grade when we leave the

MARCH 18, 1917

Here we are again around the yellow
lamp. I like to come to the old house
the best of all. I feel more at home
here than anywhere on earth. It is
queer how places cling to one. I haven't
much feeling about the other houses
where I lived. I suppose because no
one I care for is in them now. I often
drop in and sit in my old chair. I can
still feel and enjoy it.


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MARCH 25, 1918

During the Spring Drive when sons
of his old friends were leaving for

I have given my time since I came
over to helping any one who needed me,
but now I shall have my adopted family
of boys. It will be a joy to me and per-
haps some comfort to you mothers.

You might as well give up having
nerves over the war news. It is going
to be worse and this is only the beginning
of terrible battles. No human being
can stop it, but Right will prevail. The
end is not in sight from my limited vi-
sion; we get rumors from high sources
and there may be wise ones who know,
but I am not one of them. .

Be as philosophical as you can, know
it is a Holy War, that the lads coming
over here are living their lives just as


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surely, and because of their sacrifice in a
much finer sense, than could be achieved
by two lifetimes on earth 1 . They will
know what the wisest Masters have taken
centuries to learn, the supreme good of
self-sacrifice. That is the great initia-
tion which only those worthy are permit-
ted to take, and whether they live on your
plane or this, they will never be the same

The boys will keep their own spirits
pure for the service they are called upon
to give. They must go as the Knights of
old, with but one vision before them,
"For God and Country." This sounds
like preaching, but, my dears, it is a sol-
emn hour.

I now know this war is a privilege, not
the calamity I first thought it. The race
is permitted to have its Gethsemane and
Crucifixion, but the hour of Resurrec-


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tion is nearer than you dream. It is
good to live and have enough knowledge
to see it. Keep the eyes of your soul
clear. Don't be blinded by the visible,
you are not living in a material but in a
spiritual universe.


One evening when H. expressed a de-
sire for more proofs of identity not too
personal to be included in this book the

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