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returned the money.

Mr. Fareway had been gone tiro years or mofe, and I had
forgotten him, when he one day walked into my rooms as I
was sitting at my books.

Said be, aftor the usaal sidotaitioiis had passed, *^ Mr, Sil-
rerman, my mother is in town here, at the hotel, and wishes
me to present yo« to her."

I was D6t oomfortaUe with strangers, aad I dare nj I be-
trayed that I was a btlle nervous or imwiliing. ^^ For," saM
he, without my having spoken, ^^ I think the intenriew majr
tend to the advancement of 3'our prospects."
: It pQt me to the blush to tUnk that I shoald be temfited by
a worldly reason, and I rose immediately.

Said Mr. Fareway, as we went along, *^ Are you a good
hand at business ? "

'' I tliink not," saod I.

Said Mr. Fareway then, ^^ My mother is.*^

" Truly," said I.

''Yes: my mother is what is nsvially called a TnanaglDg
woman. Does nt make a bad thing, for instance, even oat
of the 8|>endthria habits of my eldost brother abroad. I»
short, a managing woman. This is m confidem«."

He had never spoicen to me in covAdcDce, and I was sar-
prised by his doing so. I said I should resfiect his eooi-
dence, of course, and said no more on the delicate SBh^ect
We had but a little way to walk, and I was soon in his molh-
er*s company. He presented me, shook hands with me, and
left us two (as he said) to business.

I saw in my Lady Fareway a handsome, well-preaemd
lady of somewhat large stature, with a steady gUm in her
great round dai-k eyes that embairassed me.

Said my lady, '' 1 have heard from my sou, Mr. Stlvennaa,
that you woukl be glad of some preferment in tke church.*

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I gave my lady to onderstaad that was so.

** I don't know w^tiior you are aware," my lady proceeded,
^^ that we have a presentation to a living? I say we hare ;
bnt, in point of faot> / have."

I gave my lady to undecstaad that I had not been aware of

Said n^' lady, ^' So it is : indeed, I have two presentations,
— one to two hundred a year, one to six. Both livings are
in our eoonty, — North Devonakire, — as you piobabty know.
The first is vacant. Would you like it? "

What witli my lady's eyes, and what witit the suddenness
of this proposed gift, I was maoh conftised.

^^ I aw Sony it is not the larger presentation^" said my lady
rather coldly; ^^ though I will not, Mr. Silverman, pay 3x>u
the bad compliment of supposing that yon are, because tlmt
would be mercenary, — and mercenary I am persuaded you
are not."

Said I, with my utmost earnestness, ^* Thank yon, Lady
Fareway, thank you, thank you I I should be deeply hurt If
I thought I bore the charadtor."

^^ Naturally," said my lady. ^^ Always detestable, but
partieiilarly in a clergyman. You have not said whether you
will like the living?"

Witb apologies ibr my remissness or indist&notness, I as-
sured my lady that I accepted it most readily and grateAiHy.
I added that I hoj^ed she would not estimate my ai)preciation
of the genisrosily of her dhoice by my fiow of woi*ds ; for I
was not a I'eady man ia that respect when taken by surprise
or touched at heart.

^< The. affair is conehided," said my lady; ^^cottoluded.
You will find the duties ver}' light, Mr. Silverman. Cbaim-
ing house; charming little garden, orchard, and all that,
you will be able to take puinls. By-tUe-by ! No : I will re-
turn to the word aAei^waids. What was I going to mention,
.when it put nie out?"

My lady staied at me, as if I knew. And I did n't know.
And that [x^rplexeil me aA*esh.

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Said 1113' ]ad3% after some consideration, ^^ Oh, of course,
how very dull of me ! The last incumbent, — least merce-
nary man I ever saw, — in consideration of the duties being
so light and the house so delicious, conid n*t rest, he said,
unless I permitted him to help rae with my oorrespondence,
accounts, and various little things of that kind ; nothing in
themselves, but which it worries a lady to cope with. Would
Mr. Silverman also like to-^ — ? Or shall I ?

I hastened to 9«y that my poor help would be always at her
ladyship's service.

^' I am absolutely blessed,*' said my lady, casting up her
ej'es (and so taking ^lem off of roe for one moment)^ ^^in
having to do with gentiemen who cannot endure an approach
to the idea of being mercenary ! " She shivered at the word.
^^ And now as to the pupil."

4i The ?" I was qaitb at a k)ss.

^^ Mr. Silverman, you have no idea what she is. She is,**
said my lady, laying her touch upon my coat-sleeve, *^ I do
verily believe, the most extraordinary girl in this world.
Already knows more Greek and Latin than Lady Jane Grey.
And taught herself! Has not yet, remember, derived a mo-
ment's advantage from Mr. Silverman's dassieal acquire-
ments. To say nothing of mathematics, whidi she is bent
upon becoming versed in, and in which (as I hear ftom my
.son and others) — Mr. SUvennan's reputation is so deser-
vedly high!"

Under my lady's eyes I must liave lost the ehie, I ftH
l>ei'siiaded ; and yet I did not know where I cotdd hai«
dropped it.

^^ Adelina," said my lady, ^' is my only dau^tor. If I did
•not feel quite convinced that I am not blinded by a mother's
partiality ; unless I was absolutely sure that when yon know
her, Mr. Silverman, you will esteem it a high and unosiiil
privilege to direct her studies, — I shottkl introduce a mer-
cenary' element into this convci*satiou, and ask yoa on what
.terms "

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I entreated my lady to go no farther. M}*^ lady saw that
I was troabled, and did me the honor to oomplj- with my


EvKUTTUiKG in mental acquidtion that hc^ brother might
have been, if he would, and everything in all gi*acioas charms
and admirable qualities that no one but herself could be, —
this was AdeHna.

I will not expatiate ui)on her beauty ; I will not expatiate
upon her intdligence, her quickness of perception, her powers
of memory, her sweet consideration, from the first moment,
for the slow-paced tutor who ministered to her wonderful
gifts. I was thirty then ; 1 am over sixty now : she is ever
present to me in these houra as she was in those, bright and
beautiful and young, wise and fanciful and good.

When I discovered that I loved her, how can I say ? In the
first da}' ? in the first week ? in the first month ? Impossible
to trace. If I be (as I am) unable to represent to myself any
previous period of my life as quite 8ei>arable from her atti*act-
ing power, how can 1 answer for this one detail ?

Whensoever I made the discovery, it laid a heavy burden on
me. And 3'et, comparing it with the far heaviei* bui^den that
I afterwards took up, it does not seem to me now to have
been veiy hard to beai*. In the knowledge that I did love
her, and that I should love her while m}* life lasted, and that
1 was ever to hide my seci'et deep in m^' own breast, and she
was never to find it, there was a kind of sustainiug joy or
pinde, or comfort, mingled with my pain.

But later on, — say, a year later on, — when 1 made anolhei*
discover}', then indeed my suffering and my struggle wei'c
sti'ong. That other discoveiy was

These woixls will never see the light, if ever, uulil my heart
is dust; until her bright spirit has i*eturued to the r<^ous of

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which, when iraprisoned here, it surely reiained some VMistial
glimpse of remembranoc ; tmtii all 0ie pulses thai erer beat
around as shall have long been quiet ; until all the fniitB of aU
the tiny victories and defeats achieved in our little breasts
shall have withered away. That discovery was that she
loved me.

She may have enhanced my knowledge, and loved me for
that ; she may have over^valued ni>* dlsdiarge of dety to ber,
and loved me for that ; she may have refined upon a playful
compassion which she would sometimes show for what she
called my want of wisdom, according to the light of the
world's dark lanterns, and loved me for that ; she nay — she
must — have conAised tlie borrowed light of what 1 had only
learned, with its brightness in its pure, original rays ; but she
loved me at tliat time, and she made me know it.

Pride of family and pride of wealth put me as far o(f fVom her
in my lady's e3'e6 as if 1 had been some domestieated creatwre
of another kind. But they couM not put me farther fixm her
than I put myself when 1 set my merits agaiasi bers. More
than that. They oould not put me, by millions of fiAthoms^
half so low beneath her as I put myself when in itnafinatioa
I took advantage of her noble trustfulness, took the forloM
that 1 knew she must possess in her own right, aod left her to
find herself in the zenith of her beauty aod genios, bomd to
poor, nisty, plodding me*

No ! Worldliness should not enter here at any cost. If I
had tried to keep it out of other ground, how much harder
was 1 bound to try to keep it out ft'om this saoi-ed place !

But there was sometliing daring in her broads generous
character, that demanded at so delicate a crisis to be deh-
catcl}' and patiently addressed. After many asd many a
bitter night (oh ! I fouml I could cr>% for reasons uoC purely
pli}*sical, at this pass of my life !) 1 took m}' course.

My lady had, in our first inten-iew^ unconsdously o^-er-
stated the acoommodadou of my pretty house, lliere was
room in it for only one pupil. Ue was a 3'oung ge&Uemao

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near coming of ag«, ver^- well <jonn©cted, bnt what is called %
poor reliition. His parents were dead. The charges of his
living and reading with me were defra3'ed by an uncle ; and
he and I were to do onr ntmost together for three years
towards qnalif\ing him to make his wa\\ At this time lie
had entered into his second j^ear with me. He was well*
looking, elever, enei^tie, enthiisiastie, bold; in the best
sense of the term^ a thorough young Anglo-Saxon.
I resolved to bring these two together.


Said I, one night, when I had conquered mj'self, "Mr,
Granville," — Mr. Gnui\ille Wharton his name was, — "I
doubt if you have ever 3'et so much as seen Mias Fareway."

" Well, sir," relumed he, lauglring, '^ you see her so much
yourself, that you hardly leave another fellow a chance of see-
mg her."

** I am her tutor, you know," said I.

And there the subject dropped for that time. But I so
contrived as that the}^ should come together shoHl}* afler^
ward». I had previously so contrived as to keep them
asunder ; for while I loved her, — I mean before I had deter*
mined on my sacriflce, — a lurking jealousy of Mr. Gramnlle
lay witWn tn^- unwoitli}' bi^east.

It was qfuite an oiYlinary interview in the Fareway Pajk ;
but they talked easily together for some time : like takes to
Kke, and tliey had many ixiints of ^semblance. Said Mr.
Gt*anville to me, when ho and I sat at cm* mipi^er that night,
'* Mtss Fareway is remarkably beautiful, sir, remarkabl}' en-
gaging. Don't you tliiuk so? " " I think so," said I. And
1 stole a glance at him, and saw that he had reddened and
was thoughtful. I remember it most vivklly, because the
mixed feeling of grav« pleasure ai)d acute ^Miin that the slight

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circomstanoe caused me was the first of a long, long series of
such mUed impressions under which my liair turned slowly

I had not much need to feign to be subdued ; bat I coun*
terfeited to be older than I was in all respects (Heaven
knows I my heart being all too 3'oung the while) , and feigned
to be more of a recluse and bookworm than I had really
become, and gradually set up more and more of a £atlieriy
manner towai'ds Adelina. Likewise I made my tuition less
imaginative than before; separated myself fVom my poete
and philosophers ; was cai*eful to present them in their own
liglit, and me, their lowly servant, in my own shade. More-
over, in tlie matter of apparel, I was equally mindAil ; not
that I had ever been dapper that wa^', but that I was slovenly

As I depressed m^'self with one hand, so did I labor to
raise Mr. Granville with the otlier; directing his attentioa
to such subjects as I too well knew moat intei*ested her, and
fashioning him (do not deride or misconstrue the ex^Ni^easion,
unknown i*eader of this writing; for I have suffered!) into a
gi*eater resemblance to m3'8elf in my solitary one strong
aspect. And gradually, gradually, as I saw him take more
and more to these thrown-out lures of mine, then did I come
to know better and better that love was drawing him odi and
was drawing her fh)m me.

So passed more than another year ; every day a }'ear in
its number of my mixed impressions of grave pleaaare and
acute [)ain ; and then these two, being of age and fVee to act
legally for themselves, came before me hand-in-hand (my hair
being now quite white), and entreated me that I would unite
them together. ^^ And indeed, dear tutor," said AdeHna, ^^ it
is but consistent in you that you should do this thing for us,
seeing that we should never have spoken together that first
time but for you, and that but for you we could never have
met so often afterwards." The whole of which was literally
true ; for I had availed myself of my many business attend-

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aaced on, and conferences with, my lad)^ to take Mr. Granville
to the house, and leave him in the outer iXK>m with Adelina.

I knew that my lady would object to such a marriage for
^r daughter, or to any marriage that was other than an ex-
change of her for stipulated lands, goods, and moneys. But
looking on the two, and seeing with fUU eyes that they were
both young and beautiful ; and knowing that they were alike in
the tastes and acquirements that will outlive youtli and beauty ;
and considering that Adelina had a fortune, now, in her own
keeping ; and considering, fui*ther, that Mr. Granville, though
for the present poor, was of a good family that had never
lived in a cellar in Preston; and believing that thein love
would endure, neither having any great discropancy to find
out in tlie other, — I told them of my readiness to do this
tiling which Adelina asked of her dear tutor, and to send
them foilh husband and wife, into the shining world with
golden gates that awaited them.

It was on a summer morning that I rose before the sun, to
compose myself for the crowning of my work with this end ;
and my dwelling being near to the sea, I walked down to the
rocks on the shore, in order that I might behold the sun in
his majestj' .

The tranquillity upon the deep, and on the firmament, the
orderly withdrawal of the stars, the calm promise of coming
■day, the rosy suffusion of the sky and waters, the ineffable
splendor that then burst forth, attuned my mind a&esli after
the discords of the night. Methought that all I looked on
said to me, and that all I heard in the sea and in the air said
to me, ^^ Be comforted, mortal, that thy life is so short. Our
preparation for what is to follow has endured, and shall en-
dure for unimaginable ages."

I married them. I knew that my hand was cold when I
plaeed it on their hands clasped together; but the woi*ds
with which I had to accompany the action I could say with-
out faltering, and I was at peace.

They being well away iVom my house and Arom the place

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after our simple breakfast, tbe thne was come wben I nrait
do what I had pieced myself to them that I would do,—
break the iatelligenoe to my lady.

I went up to the house, and tcmnd my lady in her ordinaiv
business-room. She ba{^)ened to hare an onusoal amount of
oommissious to intrust to me that day ; aad she had filled my
hands with i)ai)ers betbre I could originate a wonL

^^ My lady," I then began as I stood beside her table.

^^ Why, what's tbe matter?" she said quickly, looking np.

^^ Not mudi, I would fain hope, after you abali ha^e pre-
pared }'ourself, and oousidei'ed a little.*'

^^ Prepared ni3'self; and considered a little! You appear
to have prepared ^u/self but radififisreatl}', anyhow, Mr.
Silverman." This mighty scomfnily, as I experienced my
usual embarrassment under her stare.

Said I, in self-extenuation once for alU ^^ Lady Fare way, I
have but to say for myself tliat I hare tried to do my duty.**

"For yourself?" rq^eated my h^ly. *'Tken there are
others concerned, I see. Who are tliey ? "

I was about to answer, wlien she made towards the bell
with a dart that stopped ma, and said, ^'Why, where is

^^ Forbear! Be calm, my lady. I married her this morn-
ing to Mr« Granville Wharton."

She set her lips, looked more intently at rae thaa ercr,
raised her right hand, and smote me hard upon the cheek.

'^ Give me back those papers! give me back those papers I"
She tore them out of my hands, and tossed theas on her
tal>le. Then^ seating herself defiantly in her great chair, and
folding her anas, she stabbed me to the heait with the on*
looked-for reproach, *^ You worldl}' wretch 1 "

'' Worldly ! " I cried. '^ Woiidly ! "

^^ This, if you please," — she went on wfth supreme seom,
pointing me out as if there were some one there to see, -^
^^ this, if you please, is the disinterested scholar, with nets
ilcsign beyond Us books ! This, if you please, Ja the sinpfe

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ci^ature whom any one could overreach hi a bai^ain 1 This,
if 3*ou pleade, is Mr. Silverman ! Not of tliis world ; not
he ! He has too mneb simplicity ft>r this world's cimiung.
He has too much singleness of purpose k> be a match tbr this
world's double-dealing. What did he give you for it? "

'* For what ? And who? *'

" How mnch," she asked, bending Ibrwaixl In ber gi-eat
chair, and insultingly tapping the fingei-s of lier right hand
on the palm of her left, — " how much does Mr. Granville
Wharton pay 3-011 for getting him Adetina's money? What
is the amount of your i)er^oenti^ upon Addina's fortune?
What were ^e terms of the agreement that you proposed to
this boy when you, the Reverend George Silverman, licensed
to inarr}',' engaged to put him in possession of tl^s givl?
You made good terms for yourself, whatever they were. He
would stand a poor <rhanoe against 3'om* keenness/'

Bewildered, homHed, stunned bj* this cmel i)erver»oii, I
eould not si)eak. But I trust that I looked innocent, be*
ing so.

** Listen to me, shrewd hypocrite," said my lady, whose
anger Increased as she gave It utterance; ^^ attend to my
words, you cunning schemer, who have carried this plot
throiigli with such a practised double face that I liave never
Suspected you. I had m3' projects for m3' daughter ; projects
tov fhmlly connection; projects for fortune. You have
tliwarted them, and overreaclied nac ; hut I am not one to lie
thwarted and oven-eaelied witliout retaliation. Do you mean
to hold this living another month ? "

*' Do you de«n it possible, Lady Fareway, that I can hold
it another hour, under your injurious words?**

*' Is it resigned, then?"

'^ It was mentally resigned, my lady, some mimites ago."

'' Don't equivocate, sh*. Is it resigned? *'

^^Unconditionally and entirely; and I would that I had
never, never come near it ! **

^^ A cordial response Ax>m me to that wish, Mr. Sih^erman 1

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But take this witU 3'ou, sir. If you had im^ reaigned it, I
would have had you deprived of it. AjkI though you have
resigned it, you will not get quit of me aa easily as you think
for. I will pursue you with this story. I will make this
nefaiious oonspiracy of yours, for money, known. You
have made money by it, but you have at the same time made
an enemy by it. Fou will take good care that the money
sticks to you ; I will take good care that the enemy sticks to

Then said I finally, ^^ Lady Fareway, I think m}* heart is
broken. Until I came into this room just now, the possibility
of such mean wickedness as you have imputed to me nev^
dawned upon my thoughts. Your suspidons — "

^^ Suspicions! Pah!" said she indignantly. ^^Certain-

^*' Your certainties, my lady, as 3'ou call them, your sus-
picions as I call them, are cruel, unjust, whoU}^ devcnd of
foundation in fact. I can declare no more ; except that I
have not acted for my own profit or my own pleasure. I have
not in this proceeding considered mj'self. Once again, I
think my heart is broken. If I have unwittingly done any
wrong with a righteous motive, that is some penalty to pay.**

She received this with another and more indignant '^ Pah !"
and I made my way out of her room (I think I felt my way
out with my hands, althougli my eyes were open), almost
suspecting that my voice had a repulsive sound, and that I
was a repulsive object.

There was a great stir made, the bishop was appealed to,
I received a severe reprimand, and narrowly escaped suspen-
sion. For years a cloud hung over me, and my name was
tarnished. But my heart did not break, if a broken heart
involves death ; for I lived through it.

They stood by me, Adelina and her husband, through it all.
Those who had known me at collie, and even most of those
who had only known me there by reputation, stood by me too.
Little by little, the belief widened that I was not capable of

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what was laid to my charge. At length I was pi'esented to a
college living in a sequestered place, and there I now pen my
explanation. I pen it at my o|>en window in the summer-
time, before me lying the churchyard, equal resting-place for
sound hearts, wounded hearts, and broken hearts. I pen it
for the relief of m}' own minfd, not foreseeing whether or no
it will ever have a reader.

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It was in the year of our Lord one thousand seven hundred
and forty-four, that I, Gill Davis, to command, His Mark,
having then the honor to be a private in the Royal Marines,
stood a-leaniug over the bulwarks of the armed sloop ^^ Chris-
topher Columbus," in the South American waters, off the
Mosquito shore.

My lady remarks to me, before I go an}- further, tliat there
is no such christian-name as Gill, and that her confident opin-
ion is, that the name given to me in the l>apti8m wherein I was
made, &c., was Gilbeit. She is CH?rtain to be right, but I
never heard of it. I was a foundling child, picked up some-
where or another, and I always understood mj* christian-name
to be Gill. It is true tliat I was called Gills when employel
at Snorndge Bottom betwixt Chatham and 3Iaii)stone to
frighten birds ; but that had nothing to do with the Ba|>tisiii
wherein I was made, &c., and whcixjin a number of things
were promised for me by somebody, who let me alone ewr
aflerwai-ds as to performing any of them, and who, I consiikr,
must have been the Beadle. Such name of Gills was entirely


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ovlttg to my dieeks, or ^Is^ wMok al tb^t (inae of my Mfe
were of a i^sspy doBoription.

My lady 8to|)8 me again^ beloi'c I go any fbirthcr, by longk-
iB^ eJcMsUy in her old way am) waving the feather of lier i)cn
at mo^ That afition on her pari, calls lo my mind as 1 look
a4^ ber hand with the rings on it - »^^ Weil I I won't ! To be
sure it will come in, m its own pdftce. But it*s alwaj's strange
to me noticing t^e quiet baud, ami noticing it (as I have
done, you know, so many times) a-fondling children and
grandchildren asleep, to think that when blood aod honor
.were up — there ! I won't I not at present I — Scratch it out.
She won't scratch it out, and ^utte houomble ; because we
have made an nmkrslanding tliat e\'erytlting is to be taken
down, and that nothing that is once taken dl^wn sliall be
BOtatched oat. I have the great misfortune not to be able to
read and write, and I am speaking m)' true and foithlul
account of those AdYentures, and iiny lady k writing it, woixl
fiMT word.

I say, there I was, a*leaning over the bnlwarks of the sloop
^^ Chrtstopher Columbus" in the South Aracrioan waters otf
Mosquito shore: a subject of ha» Gracious Majesty King
Geoi*^ of Engiand, and a private in tiie Ro}'al Marines.

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